Ultra-Confessional (by Elaine Equi)

Original Text: 
Elaine Equi, Ripple Effect: New and Selected Poems (Minneapolis, MN: Coffee House Press, 2007). This poem is reproduced on the Griffin Prize Web Site (from a volume on the 2008 International Shortlist).
I'm a bit of a masochist, not much of a singer--if I had a hammer, I'd only hurt myself. My father did not think enough of me to molest me. For years, I lived with the shame of it and did not have the energy to create multiple personalities or develop an eating disorder, which has always seemed to me a pleasant way to while away the day, regulating incoming and outgoing in terms of something concrete as food or excrement.
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RPO poem Editors: 
Ian Lancashire
RPO Edition: 
2011