Have You Ever Faked an Orgasm?

Original Text: 
Molly Peacock, Cornucopia: New and Selected Poems 1975-2002 (New York: W. W. Norton, 2002): 181.
1When you get nervous, it's so hard not to.
2When you're expected to come in something
3other than your ordinary way, to
4take pleasure in the new way, lost, not knowing
5how to drive it back to sureness ... where are
6the thousand thousand flowers I always pass,
7the violet flannel, then the sharpness?
8You can't, you can't ... extinguish the star
9in a burst. It goes on glowing. That head
10between your legs so long. Could it really
11want to be there? One whimpers as though ...
12then gets mad. One could smash the other's valiant head.
13"You didn't come, did you?" Naturally, he knows.
14Although I try to lie, the truth escapes me
15almost like an orgasm itself. Then the "No"
16that should crack a world, but doesn't, slips free.
Publication Notes: 
Original Love (1995)
RPO poem Editors: 
Ian Lancashire
RPO Edition: 
2004
Special Copyright: 

Copyright 2002 Molly Peacock: Cornucopia W. W. Norton. Permission to reproduce must be obtained from the publisher.